Replies and Defense

Well, it's time again for my entry in this blog. Or else it will whither and die... My poor baby.

My title couldn't have been more plain.

First, i have to reply two very sweet people from the chatbox.


Jiaqi: Heyy, nice to meet you too, and it's really sweet of you to post something here. Anyway, you can get my book here and it's 17$ (or it sit the other way round?), just to tell you firsthand. =)
Samantha: Well, i didn't win any writing competition or anything. I just happen to be very lucky to get Dorrance from the States to publish my book for me. I found them through online though. And as to where you can get my book, it's linked up there in Jiaqi's reply, and i hope you really get to read it. To tell you the truth, it's a little immature as i wrote it when i was 12, so please bear with me, lol. Keep in touch and hope to see you soon.


Anyway, i was feeling a little bit aggressive about some certain things and i am currently listening to songs from 30 Seconds to Mars (I love Jared Leto) and New Found Glory to chill off some heat. Really, i would think i really deserved it.

Oh yeah! New Found Glory is awesome and i love their songs! All Downhill From Here is awesome! Two thumbs up! I'd say 'Welcome to the circle of Jocelyn's-all-time-favourite-bands, dudes'. LOL, yea yea, i know. I love loads of bands and me finding a new one to adore every few months isn't really a very exciting thing -- not!! I really like those bands that i introduced, and i stuck with them.

Okay, I don't know why i just explain some really melodrama thing to you, which has nothing to do with anything I'm about to reveal to you now. Well, maybe it's because of the song I'm listening now. Bullets For My Valentine - My Fist, Your Mouth, Her Scars. Yeah, i know, heavy metal. But what can i do? I love it.

Well, here's some things i need to make clear of. First of all, humans talk, i get it, it's okay. Second, humans talk about other people, i get it, it's okay too. But what i don't get is why people keep talking and talking and talking and talking about the same thing over and over and over again. It's like the topic is repeating over and over and over again and there's no way of stoppin' it unless they stop it themselves. Of course, i don't mean everyone. No, of course not! I am just being random and there's this circle of people around me and -- oh nevermind, screw that. What I'm trying to say is, why are some people always trying to pick on other people? They are just mean, sometimes, you know. I am a person, a 15 year old person who is growing up and trying to find her way in life. Isn't this what all teenagers do? I love my music, i love writing, and most importantly, i love my family. People have no rights to criticize my family, my mum, my dad or anyone of us. So what if my mum decided to let us sink into the world of music since young? Music, for me, is the best thing that had ever happened to me, and i love it dearly. I will hold on to it, and i have decided to make a career out of it. She thinks that this is the best thing for me, and i agree. It's nobody's business. I love her for letting me learn music. So what if my results dropped? So what if i am a failure at my studies? So what if i am a nobody? It's nobody's damned business and i don't answer to anyone except my parents in my results. I am their daughter, for goodness's sake, and only they have the rights to teach and correct me. Even my grandmother didn't say anything in my life! What can other people say some more? Yeah, five years from now you expect me to be a simple-being, a nobody, or even a very miserable person. I can't say anything to that. Maybe i will be that, or maybe i won't, i won't know. I can't know. I am no God, and i sure as hell can't predict the future. If anybody could, please let me know. If you are certain that you can see into the future, then you let me know and tell me my outcome, since some people are quite certain of it already. I am not pin-pointing anybody in this. I'm sure a lot of other people are looking and watching me with every step, but i need to stay focus, and by doing that, i need no distractions. I have loads in my mind these days and to say the least, i love my enemies= people who hates me and my guts. God taught me to love them and therefore, i will. People who loathes me taught me to stand up in this world, and fight hard for what i want - in an indirect way. Therefore, i love them for it.

Okay, those are loads of things that i spat out suddenly and i just wasted an hour on it. It's past midnight now, and i should be sleeping. Things are getting themselves in and out of my head and i think i am just absurdly sleepy.

Wait wait, i just finished All Together Dead (yes, True Blood) and it is awesome! Eric remembers!!! Though i admit i might have skipped some books... Ahehehe. Anyways, if i get to buy in in some way, i would, believe me.

And and and!!!! I found this video, which is totally awesome, by New Found Glory and Paramore! Awesome! It's titled 'Kiss Me' and Hayley slapped somebody there... LOL.

Enjoy.



See that? See that? Hah! Hayley has guts! LOL.

And so, goodnight.



~Jocelyn-Lixian

Things Are Happening

Well dudes, loads of things are happning around me. First of all, my school is closed. We, as the students of SMK Alor Akar, do not need to go to school for two whole weeks, including the August holidays. Yes, it will be fun. No, it will be torturous. Reason? We have our trials right after 'holidays'. So much for holidays...

Anyhow, I am not here to talk about my exams. No, that is the last thing on my talking list, believe me. Well, you ask what i'm here for then. I tell you, my friends. I am here to spread the hotness of a certain 'vampire' whose hotness is needed to be spread throughout my world. Guys, maybe this post isn't so appropriate for you. LOL.

Yes, i am very happy.

As you peeps know, i am very much in love with the TV series called True Blood. It is a vampire based story, based on the books by Charlaine Harris, the Southern Vampire Series. I think. But, i have read four of the books, and i have finished watching the first season, and i think i would be an adequate enough spoke person for True Blood.

IT IS AWESOME AND I WANNA WATCH SEASON 2!!! (Thank you, Christopher, for bearing with me and patiently helping me fill my pendrive with those episodes. Owe you one, dude).

Anyway, Bill Compton is sweet, passionate, caring and protective. Yes, he is the man for Sookie Stackhouse. But we all know better, don't we? Eric Northman is the bomb! He is dangerous, gorgeous, strong, awesome and a whole lot other things. I'll let the pictures do the talking for a while. You will see why i said he is the 'bomb'.

Yes, Eric Northman would be the blond haired guy. His real name is Alexander Skarsgard and he is from Swedden. He speaks excellent English and he is a very, very good actor. He is the greates - if not the best - choice for Eric Northman.

His image in the second season. So much hotter, much more dangerous.

Here, they were going to pound on Lafayett for draining vampire and selling it them - which is, of course, illegal. So, as sheriff of Area 5, Eric had to settle matters... LOL.

Now, i have two videos here from True Blood, featuring Eric Northman. Enjoy.

'Do i have blood in my hair?' Now that is awesome. His voice is real gentle, as though talking to a child, but they are dangerous... Oh my gosh.



'And Pam, those were great plumps.' *FAINTS*

Here you see Bill, Sookie and Eric. Sookie got slashed at by a half bull, half animal thingie. She got poisoned and Bill sent her to Fangtasia, where Eric got a dwarf doctor (Dr. Ludwig. Yes, so ironic) to heal her. You'll see them here. And i think this it the part where Sookie slaps Eric. LOL. Sooooooo much fun.

So, if you are still not interested in True Blood, remind me to knock your head off and give you a huge knuckle sandwich. I assure you, after you received those, you will love True Blood to death.

And so, i will sign off here. =)

Oh no, wait. Here's a video i would like you guys to see. This proves that Jared Leto is an amazing entertainer. He can sing, compose, play the guitar and act. Amazing guy!




So i shall sign off here. See ya till next time.

=P

~Lixian (pronounces as Lee-Zen, with your mouth smiling when you say Zen)

True ...

Before i start anything, i am listening to 'The River' by Good Charlotte featuring M. Shadows and Synyster Gates from Avenged Sevenfold. They are awesome! - i mean, the two dudes from A7X.

Well, loads of things are happening lately. First, a school in the town I'm staying had been closed and quarantined for H1N1. So people, please take good care of your health and be healthy - always! So far, there's four deaths in Malaysia and i do not want to know about another death here. The knowledge of another life has gone from the surface of this earth is quite unbearable for me.

You may think that i am afraid of death - but i tell you, truly, that i am not quite afraid of it. Death is what everyone has to go through in their last times on earth and for me, i see death as another part of journey after life. I value life. I love and appreciate life. But - Being a human, i accept that i am going to die - be it sooner or later. But nonetheless, i accept it and though i do not welcome it, i am not afraid of it. The only thing that will torment me with fright is the thought of going through pain. I cannot stand pain. I am truly afraid of it. There - my weakness. I am terrified of pain. Call me witless, call me chicken. I care not. But i tell you now, i am afraid of pain.

These days, i am going through many things. I have my exams, and i have my life to think about. Sometimes, i think that i cannot do certain things - and that tears me down. But then again, i see the possibilities in the course, and my enthusiasm flares up in me once more like a rope dipped with gasoline. The things that i want to do - i want to be a composer, a vocalist, a producer, a script writer, a director, an author. I see so many things that i may be capable of doing in the future, and i am not boasting about it here. I am merely weighing my options and consider my interests for my future. Many teenagers cannot see where they want to go in my age. Whenever someone asks them, their answer would be 'I don't know yet.' I dunno what happened, but i can fathom my course - for now - and i want to pursue it with all i can.

To tell you the absolute truth, i cannot see myself doing paper work. I mean, give me a break. Tied up in office with a desk and a computer with tonnes of white blurry papers to finish? Well, some people may call it fun, but doing those things certainly is not on my list of what i call 'fun'.

Well, no matter. I shall see where things go. Does the phrase 'old soul stuck in a young body'. I know i may not act very mature sometimes, but that is how i cope with my very confusing present life.

Okay, besides writing now, i am 'arguing' with people in Facebook about True Blood and Twilight. Before i go into that though - I LOVE TRUE BLOOD!! True Blood is awesome, and i love it forever, and ever and ever and ever. Stephen Moyer and Anna Paquin are terrific! Honest to God, Stephen Moyer is probably the best vampire on earth! He is awesome, and i fell in love with Bill Compton because of him. Oh my gosh, i am gushing and sputtering now, and i do not care. Stephen Moyer is probably the second and the last vamp to ever catch my heart *heart gallops*. The first one... Well, he caught me as a human first (Rob Pattinson) then he became a vamp, so there. Bill Compton is IT!

As i was saying, i was arguing with people in Facebook about Twilight and True Blood. I honestly think that True Blood is a much better vampire series than Twilight. And as i was saying, Twilight are for minor/teen vamp fans - if you get what i mean. There isn't so many bloody vampiric scenes in it, and it all evolves more about two people in love and the forbidden love and dramas. It's all in one person's head, you know. You don't get to see vampires in real action besides Edward, Victoria, James and the Vultori getting down to business. And the Vultori is just talking! Twilight is more on the love rather than the things that are going, you understand. There's not much blood, but loads of chemistry.

Whereas True Blood has everything and happens everywhere - and i mean, everything and everywhere. True Blood has more action, more badass vampires, more characters, much more bloody (seriously, there's blood everywhere) and the chemistry between Bill and Sookie is amazing! True Blood is much more complex and interesting, it automatically raises up to a whole new level.

To make it simple, Twilight is love; True Blood is steamy hot, passionate love.

I need a stronger word for love - 'cause True Blood really needs it.

Not that i don't feel Twilight's thing. It's just... I feel it better in True Blood - as an audience and a reader.

But, when it comes to reading vampire series... It is either Anne Rice's series or Dracula - the originals. Anne Rice has an amazingly creative mind, and an awesome writing attraction. You could really feel it when you're reading her books and when it's Lestat, you're Lestat. When it's a story, you start sinking into it without surfacing until the end. It's so real and deep. Beautiful to a man, handsome for a woman. I understand it completely. So what if a guy kisses another guy? It does not mean they are gay. Of course, there is love between them, but not as lovers. Until you learn to understand that, Anne Rice's series may not be suitable for you.

The darker side of things are often easier for me to interpret, as are songs that has much more meaning, i totally get it. Happy go lucky is not the thing for me in the present. There's too much happening in this world to be 'happy go lucky'. Men craves blood in war, kills mercilessly. Diseases, deaths, starvations, orphans, abandonments. People kept saying it's not their fault. But then again, who's fault is it that the child became an orphan? Who's fault is it that war erupts? Men did it - humans. Mistakes after mistakes are repeated over and over again and who is it that is to be blamed?

There's so much things out there that are happening, and yet here we are, worrying about ourselves and our pride. It's not that we should not worry what is on our plates, but i think - from the point of view of a teenage girl that may not be right - that we should do all we can to help. Give, is a wonderful thing. Give without expecting a return is even a more glorious thing. I admit, i do not think that always, but i am learning. Everyone needs to learn from one another. Sometimes, a person can change the course of the entire world. A child can influence a whole hall of people. The tiniest of things can set things in motion, but the tiniest thing can also calm a person down. I want so much to understand everything that are happening in this world right now, but i do not think that is possible. Thoughts are recruiting and swarming in my mind even as i am typing now. People understand what needs to be done, but do not attempt to do it - even i.

Well, enough of these 'lectures'. There's some really steamy pictures i would like to show you guys.

Bill Compton (Stephen Moyer)

I know. This picture looks a bit... But what do you expect? He's an old vampire.

But i like the picture below. Sooki (Anna) and Bill. They are a couple in real life as well as on screen.

Their scene in Fangtasia. It's a vampire bar with a very cool name. Fangtasia... Nice. See the red bottle Bill's holding? It's stored blood. Extra nice! Even normal human bars have those. Sweet!

Smoky hot...

She got bashed up pretty badly here. I dunno why... I haven't watch the series.

Well, it's so ironic isn't it? Twilight's star Rob Pattinson is a British. True Blood's vamp is also a British. Yet they could speak like American like nobody's business. Rob, a normal American, which i think is quite easy. But for Stephen, he had to speak like a Southerner - which is so much harder, i think, with the slang and everything. Anna is amazing too! The first time i heard her speak, i could not believe it! It was amazing, lol.

Here, a short video. Do watch it! It'll melt your heart...

Well, maybe the last part was a little over-18 scene, but i ain't saw anything, promise! I hope you guys enjoy it. It's so sweet... It's not just this clip that' is nice, there's more! That's why i am looking for the DVD. Cross my fingers and hoping hard.

Oh, and one more thing. You don't see fight scenes in Twilight - as in Edward and Bella fighting. But you do see it here with Bill and Sookie. They fight and they make up. I think this is the best part of the chemistry for them.

Now this next video... Bill was angry at Sookie for letting Jessica (the 'daughter' of Bill since he Made her) go to her parents' house. He drove them home and... You see for yourself.

Anyone who is addicted to this series, please please please let me know. Then we can talk. LOL.

Quote: Though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i shall fear no evil.

~Jocelyn