Replies and Defense

Well, it's time again for my entry in this blog. Or else it will whither and die... My poor baby.

My title couldn't have been more plain.

First, i have to reply two very sweet people from the chatbox.


Jiaqi: Heyy, nice to meet you too, and it's really sweet of you to post something here. Anyway, you can get my book here and it's 17$ (or it sit the other way round?), just to tell you firsthand. =)
Samantha: Well, i didn't win any writing competition or anything. I just happen to be very lucky to get Dorrance from the States to publish my book for me. I found them through online though. And as to where you can get my book, it's linked up there in Jiaqi's reply, and i hope you really get to read it. To tell you the truth, it's a little immature as i wrote it when i was 12, so please bear with me, lol. Keep in touch and hope to see you soon.


Anyway, i was feeling a little bit aggressive about some certain things and i am currently listening to songs from 30 Seconds to Mars (I love Jared Leto) and New Found Glory to chill off some heat. Really, i would think i really deserved it.

Oh yeah! New Found Glory is awesome and i love their songs! All Downhill From Here is awesome! Two thumbs up! I'd say 'Welcome to the circle of Jocelyn's-all-time-favourite-bands, dudes'. LOL, yea yea, i know. I love loads of bands and me finding a new one to adore every few months isn't really a very exciting thing -- not!! I really like those bands that i introduced, and i stuck with them.

Okay, I don't know why i just explain some really melodrama thing to you, which has nothing to do with anything I'm about to reveal to you now. Well, maybe it's because of the song I'm listening now. Bullets For My Valentine - My Fist, Your Mouth, Her Scars. Yeah, i know, heavy metal. But what can i do? I love it.

Well, here's some things i need to make clear of. First of all, humans talk, i get it, it's okay. Second, humans talk about other people, i get it, it's okay too. But what i don't get is why people keep talking and talking and talking and talking about the same thing over and over and over again. It's like the topic is repeating over and over and over again and there's no way of stoppin' it unless they stop it themselves. Of course, i don't mean everyone. No, of course not! I am just being random and there's this circle of people around me and -- oh nevermind, screw that. What I'm trying to say is, why are some people always trying to pick on other people? They are just mean, sometimes, you know. I am a person, a 15 year old person who is growing up and trying to find her way in life. Isn't this what all teenagers do? I love my music, i love writing, and most importantly, i love my family. People have no rights to criticize my family, my mum, my dad or anyone of us. So what if my mum decided to let us sink into the world of music since young? Music, for me, is the best thing that had ever happened to me, and i love it dearly. I will hold on to it, and i have decided to make a career out of it. She thinks that this is the best thing for me, and i agree. It's nobody's business. I love her for letting me learn music. So what if my results dropped? So what if i am a failure at my studies? So what if i am a nobody? It's nobody's damned business and i don't answer to anyone except my parents in my results. I am their daughter, for goodness's sake, and only they have the rights to teach and correct me. Even my grandmother didn't say anything in my life! What can other people say some more? Yeah, five years from now you expect me to be a simple-being, a nobody, or even a very miserable person. I can't say anything to that. Maybe i will be that, or maybe i won't, i won't know. I can't know. I am no God, and i sure as hell can't predict the future. If anybody could, please let me know. If you are certain that you can see into the future, then you let me know and tell me my outcome, since some people are quite certain of it already. I am not pin-pointing anybody in this. I'm sure a lot of other people are looking and watching me with every step, but i need to stay focus, and by doing that, i need no distractions. I have loads in my mind these days and to say the least, i love my enemies= people who hates me and my guts. God taught me to love them and therefore, i will. People who loathes me taught me to stand up in this world, and fight hard for what i want - in an indirect way. Therefore, i love them for it.

Okay, those are loads of things that i spat out suddenly and i just wasted an hour on it. It's past midnight now, and i should be sleeping. Things are getting themselves in and out of my head and i think i am just absurdly sleepy.

Wait wait, i just finished All Together Dead (yes, True Blood) and it is awesome! Eric remembers!!! Though i admit i might have skipped some books... Ahehehe. Anyways, if i get to buy in in some way, i would, believe me.

And and and!!!! I found this video, which is totally awesome, by New Found Glory and Paramore! Awesome! It's titled 'Kiss Me' and Hayley slapped somebody there... LOL.

Enjoy.



See that? See that? Hah! Hayley has guts! LOL.

And so, goodnight.



~Jocelyn-Lixian